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Hello World!

I’m Kelly.

In a nutshell: I’m just a regular 26-year old girl cooking & blogging my way through anorexia recovery. My mission? To pursue my passion for healthy living & raising awareness about eating disorders in hopes that it will inspire you to become the BEST VERSION of yourself.

BUT, as you get to know me, you’ll come to realize that I’m not good with nutshell descriptions.

So here’s my story.

Welcome to Kelly in the Kitcha blog documenting my eating disorder recovery through all the deliciousness that I work up in my kitchen. My goal is to inspire you to adopt and embrace a healthy lifestyle & relationship with food and to find balance, without feeling the least bit deprived & all while using the cleanest ingredients possible (most of the time!).

Throughout my journey, I’ve learned that the words “eating healthy” & “delicious” can in fact be a part of the same sentence & ultimately, a part of your life (I swear, it’s possible!).

A lot of my recipes have a vegan &/or gluten-free spin to them, simply because I have found passion in experimenting with new ingredients & in incorporating more plant-based protein into my diet.

However, though I know that not everyone will agree with me (& that’s just fine!), I do not see the value or necessity in completely eliminating ANY food group from our diets (unless of course this is something that’s recommended by your physician, nutritionist &/or dietitian for various personal health or medical reasons).

For this reason, you will find tons of meat, chicken, fish, seafood, gluten-rich, dairy-filled recipes here too! (The only food I do not eat is red meat, but I do indicate when red meats, such as ground beef, can be substituted for other foods, such as ground turkey or chicken).

I also try to use organic, natural &/or raw ingredients but they can almost always be substituted for normal ones (& I promise I’ll make sure to tell you how & where to get them). All this to say, no matter what your dietary restriction is, odds are, YOU WILL FIND SOMETHING YOU LOVE HERE! I promise.

Before we dig (LITERALLY!) into all the yumminess I’ve been cooking & baking, let me tell you a little bit about how this all started…

Although it would take me days to tell you the story of how I ended up where I am today, in just a few words, it all began with the token “wedding diet” (ugh. that word, I just can’t stand it), but shortly after the wedding, I found myself continuing to restrict more & more & months later, my world began to shatter. I developed severe anxiety and consequently, a very severe eating disorder. I was sick. I was starving. I felt alone. I felt ashamed, disappointed in myself & deprived. I was a skeleton. My life was a ticking time bomb. I fought everyday to stay strong, but I really had no more strength in me. I felt void of life, love & desire to live. I was lost, confused and did not know where to turn or how to ask for help.

For months, both my perfectionism & the stereotype that needing help to overcome challenge & face adversity is so often associated with exposing vulnerability & weakness, held me back from seeking the treatment I so badly needed to recover.

But then I did.

Although my eating disorder has been one of the worst and most difficult obstacles I have ever had to overcome, it has taught me a series of valuable life lessons.

First and foremost, in life, we do not always choose the situations we are faced with. We do, however, have the ability to choose the way we deal with those situations & overcome them. Although it did take reaching rock bottom for me to seek the proper help to recover, I can now say with utmost certainty that doing so was one of the most courageous things I have ever done for myself and I would NEVER look back. I remember sitting in my therapist’s office at our first session and uttering these exact words: “I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel”.

Today, I can say with even more certainty that not only is the light shining ever so bright BUT, I made it out of the tunnel. I grew in ways I never thought in the realm of possibility & ultimately, into the woman I was always meant to become.

I also learned that the expression that we so often use “For every negative, there is a positive” actually has so much meaning. In fact, Kelly in the Kitch was born for that very reason. My journey towards recovery has already taught me so much about myself & about those around me, about food, nutrition, health, wellness, fitness and about taking care of & listening to your body & adopting a healthy lifestyle & relationship with food.

Through this blog, I  document my journey with a goal to inspire you to take care of your body, WORK IT (when it tells you it has the energy & it can) & FEED IT (healthily, but please do indulge sometimes!) with all my tasty, healthy & clean recipes because I’ve learned that without health, we have nothing.

And now that I have my health back, I also have my life back. I feel better than I’ve ever felt in my entire life, not only physically, but emotionally, socially & mentally. Chicken, gluten, dairy, peanuts, sweets & baked treats, avocados, healthy fats & carbs no longer scare me. I no longer have a list of “safe foods” or of “bad foods” that I’m not allowed to eat. If I want something, I eat it. I don’t think twice. I enjoy every single bite. With a huge smile on my face. But I do so with balance, moderation & a heck of a lot of knowledge.

I truly believe I have reached my optimal point of mental stability. I am comfortable in my skin & I love my body, every single part of it, for all that it is, all the squish, all the jiggle, all the curves, all the imperfections. I am proud of my ability to be so active & strong & being skinny & looking a certain way no longer matters to me anymore.

My beauty is in my physical & mental strength. It’s in my mental stability & in my ability to recognize that I deserve happiness & I deserve to ENJOY LIFE, free of Anorexia, free of a fictive manipulative being that is bigger, stronger, harder & more powerful than me.

My ED no longer defines me or who I am. It’s a part of my past (& will always be). It’s a part of what shaped me & of what brought me here today, but that’s really all it is. Yes, I do still think about it sometimes because the two years I struggled with it felt like an eternity & have certainly scarred me for life, but you know what they say: “A scar simply means that you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you“. So yes, my eating disorder did everything in its power to hurt me & ultimately, kill me & that left a heck of a scar, but what’s more is that every scar tells a story & mine tells the story of MY SURVIVAL.

While my blog began as a platform for me to share all the recipes I had begun trying as I entered recovery, seven months later, I am proud to say that it has expanded. It has really become a documentation of my day-to-day life & of my transition into adopting a healthier lifestyle overall, not only regarding nutrition, but also, fitness, mental & emotional well-being, beauty, health & wellness tips & tricks that I’ve researched & discovered throughout my journey!

One of my GOALS still remains to PROVIDE YOU WITH HEALTHY, CLEAN & DELICIOUS RECIPES & to encourage you to adopt a HEALTHY LIFESTYLE, but I also strive & hope to raise awareness about eating disorders & mental illnesses in general. I believe that these are issues that are FAR TOO OFTEN left in the dark, unheard of, ignored, underestimated & diminished.

Together, in 2017, we can all contribute in one way or another to BREAKING THAT STIGMA & to facing & fighting the harsh realities these illnesses create. I never want ANYONE to feel the way I did or to go through or experience the trauma that my eating disorder caused me. I hope to inspire you to be honest with yourselves. To come to terms with your struggles. To scream them out loud. Not to feel ashamed or discouraged. And through Kelly In The Kitch, I pray to make a difference in even just one of your lives.

ANYWAYS, now that we’ve covered all that serious stuff, I think it’s safe to say that I have literally made recovery my b*tch & I have had such an awesome experience experimenting in the kitch, educating myself, finding new passions in health, fitness & beauty. And, now, it’s time to finally share all of that with you!

I hope you’re ready to whip up a storm in your kitchen because I can almost guarantee (although I won’t, since I am a lawyer and I am well aware of what a guarantee entails…) that you won’t be able to resist these recipes. So, without further ado, put on them aprons, take out them measuring spoons & mixing bowls, preheat them ovens & LET’S DO THIS!

P.S. Please feel free to use my blog as a CONVENIENT way for YOU to COMMUNICATE WITH ME, for us to form a COMMUNITY, where you  can ask questions about any & all things pertaining to health, wellness, fitness, anorexia recovery, mental well-being, beauty, nutrition, recipes & my personal journey, submit recipe requests/suggestions &/or provide feedback!

Let Kelly In The Kitch be the start of YOU finding YOUR BALANCE, whatever it is, whatever it entails, whatever it means to you.

I love you all & I am so thankful for each & every single one of you, near or far & for all the love, support & motivation you have shown me throughout my journey.