Do you feel like your life revolves around meal times?
Do you schedule appointments based on your eating schedule?
Do you rush home to eat before a certain time or skip events because you don’t want to eat late?
Do you stop yourself from eating after a PM workout even if you’re famished & you know the right thing to do is to refuel?
Are you so focused on eating just safe foods that you pack them in coolers for trips?
Do you plan & log your meals to a T & freak if you don’t respect the restrictions or you’re missing an ingredient?
Do you get anxious if you don’t eat your meals at the same time, if a work meeting runs long & do you make excuses for why you need to leave so you don’t eat too late?
If any of this seems like an anecdote to you, I want you to know YOU. ARE. NOT. ALONE.
I’ve been there. In ALL those situations & I know, it sucks & hurts.
I was so obsessed with my eating schedule that I did everything in my power to follow the “rules”, even if it meant jeopardizing friendships, relationships, family dins, work meetings & MY SANITY. It got so bad that ALL I thought about was food & after 1 meal, I was already thinking of the next time I was “allowed” to eat.
I lived a life that depicts the opposite of eating intuitively. I lost touch with my body & my hunger & fullness cues. Sometimes, I’d starve. Others, I’d binge & the cycle got so bad that I lost hope because I didn’t see the end.
A few years later, here I am. Listening to my body MOST OF THE TIME (some days are hard & I’m tempted to restrict but I fight it stronger than before) & eating intuitively.
If I’m hungry at 9:30PM, I EAT.
If I have an appointment, I eat before or after.
If I want seconds, I serve myself & I don’t have a food log that stops me or tells me not to.
I don’t have a list of 7 safe foods anymore.
On the contrary, I try new foods all the time. I don’t just eat to eat. I eat with purpose & enjoyment & guess what? I LOVE LIFE!
If I did it, YOU CAN TOO.
But first, you need to trust your body & rebuild its trust in you.
Even if you don’t see the light, it’s there & it’s waiting for YOU to ignite it.