You Are Not What Happened To You – You Are What You Choose To Become

You Are Not What Happened To You – You Are What You Choose To Become
December 2016 ➡️  September 2018.
In less than 2 years, I completely changed my life.

December 2016 was a difficult time in my life; so difficult that I woke up everyday not knowing if I’d make it through & doubting my battle with anorexia would ever end.

I know some of you feel the same because the illness robs you of everything from your love for life to your ability to think rationally to your focus, memory & social skills & at its peak, even your desire to wake up everyday.

Because waking up everyday doesn’t just mean getting out of bed & going about your day. It means waking up & fighting with yourself not to engage in the disordered behaviour, rituals, body checking, weighing & isolation & LOSING EVERY DAMN TIME.

But I want you to know that if I did it, you can too.
There comes a time in your battle where you realize that the only thing that can save you is YOURSELF. Where you realize you have to fight harder, even if you already feel you’ve given it all you’ve got.

There comes a time where you realize you are the master of your thoughts & you have the strength to take control of your life.

YOU ARE NOT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU. YOU ARE WHAT YOU CHOSE TO BECOME & the only person who can make that choice for you is yourself.

You don’t have to wake up wondering if you’ll make it to tomorrow.
You don’t have to practice disordered rituals or behaviours.
You don’t have to isolate yourself.
You don’t have to continue hurting yourself.

You don’t have to do anything your illness tells you because you deserve peace of mind & you deserve to love yourself.

I speak from experience when I say that incredible change, change you’d never even imagine, happens when you decide to take control of what you have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t & using food to fill that void & acquire that “control”.

Please, my love, if you’re reading this & you’re struggling, know that you’re not alone. It’s been 2 years since I woke up as the girl on the left & some days, I feel more alone than I did then. Recovery isn’t linear. It’ll have its ups & downs. You’ll slip up. But we’re in this together & I’m here for you <3.


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