December 2016 was a difficult time in my life; so difficult that I woke up everyday not knowing if I’d make it through & doubting my battle with anorexia would ever end.
I know some of you feel the same because the illness robs you of everything from your love for life to your ability to think rationally to your focus, memory & social skills & at its peak, even your desire to wake up everyday.
But I want you to know that if I did it, you can too.
There comes a time where you realize you are the master of your thoughts & you have the strength to take control of your life.
YOU ARE NOT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU. YOU ARE WHAT YOU CHOSE TO BECOME & the only person who can make that choice for you is yourself.
You don’t have to do anything your illness tells you because you deserve peace of mind & you deserve to love yourself.
I speak from experience when I say that incredible change, change you’d never even imagine, happens when you decide to take control of what you have power over instead of craving control over what you don’t & using food to fill that void & acquire that “control”.
Please, my love, if you’re reading this & you’re struggling, know that you’re not alone. It’s been 2 years since I woke up as the girl on the left & some days, I feel more alone than I did then. Recovery isn’t linear. It’ll have its ups & downs. You’ll slip up. But we’re in this together & I’m here for you <3.