Hey Anxiety, You Didn’t Conquer The World Today & It’s OKAY.

The other day, I listened to a Saje Wellness Well Now podcast about anxiety & I’ve been repeating a quote I heard in non stop: “You didn’t conquer the world today. It’s okay.”

One of the worst symptoms of my anxiety is restlessness. Fighting with my mind to tell it to stop forcing my body to constantly be productive is a daily practice. It’s so freaking hard & that’s why this quote resonated with me so much.

When I get restless, I feel so irritable.

I can’t focus on anything.

I breathe quickly, my heart rate goes up + my body tenses up.

I’m so on edge that it feels like I’m waiting for something bad to happen.

Even when I try to chill, my anxiety is so bad sometimes that it screams NO & forces me to get up & pace around my house.

What’s crazy is despite all the physiological reactions my body experiences, I feel so energized that it’s like I’m jumping out of my body.

I know, this doesn’t paint the prettiest picture of me & maybe I shouldn’t share it, but I do.

Because life isn’t just about pretty pictures.
Because even though it seems like I have it all together, I don’t.
Because mental illness + anxiety is real.
Because social media is a facade & most people only show you what they want you to see.

Anxiety is a horrible mental illness & what makes it so hard to deal with + understand is that EVERYONE feels & experiences it differently. The way I experience it even varies from day to day.

Recently, my restlessness has been intense & I feel it’s important for me to share that because I’m sure some of you can relate.

Let’s not sugarcoat it: Coping with anxiety + mental illness is so hard & for me, it always helps to know I’m not alone.

So this is my cry out to you to remind you: YOU. ARE. NOT. ALONE.

However you experience anxiety: restlessness, jitters, fear, guilt, worry, sadness, depression, increased heart rate, light headedness or feelings so intense, you feel like you’re racing against yourself, I want you to know that it’s okay to have a bad day, week or month, to not feel 100% on top of your sh*t everyday & to REST your mind, even if it means taking a break from being so (overly) productive.