If there’s one thing a lot of you know about me, it’s that I am constantly trying to do my best & be the best version of myself.
In the grand scheme of things, this is more of a good thing than bad, but I also think too much of a good thing can be harmful or excessive & I struggle with this SO MUCH.
I have a hard time accepting that doing my best doesn’t mean I ALWAYS have to be on the ball, that I ALWAYS have to give 200% or that I ALWAYS have to be on the go. It doesn’t mean I have to be “my best” 24/7, 365 days a year.
Even though I’m aware of this & know it, it’s still SO HARD for me to actually practice it, just CHILL & to accept that I don’t have to be perfectly in control all the time.
The reason I struggle with this so much is my generalized anxiety. It subconsciously ignites a desire in me to keep myself busy + distracted so that the focus is diverted away from triggers + negative thoughts & my energy is put into something positive.
Anxiety makes me feel a loss of control over my mind & sometimes, even my limbs, emotions + body. Naturally, my body’s fight or flight system is turned on & I seek control elsewhere.
But, take it from me: feeling the need to be in control all the time is mentally & physically exhausting!
Despite my anxiety, I’m a human being & my body functions just like every body else’s & sometimes, just needs break. In the past, I’d catch myself wishing there were more hours in the day, but I couldn’t seem to take just ONE of those hours to focus on ME.
Today, I’m still not 100% there but I made a lot of progress. Downtime is so necessary not only so my body can reenergize, but also to disconnect from everything I want to accomplish & zen out.
What’s helped me most recently is CBD oil & I can’t wait to share more about my experience with it with you. I know it’s a bit “taboo”, but I’m firm believer in finding what works best for me & doing it with confidence, despite what others think or do & CBD works wonders for reducing my jitters & helping me feel more calm & at ease with tasks & most importantly, with myself. And in my opinion, that’s one of the most important things in the world.
What do you do to cope with your anxiety?