I have diagnosed generalized anxiety.
It’s out in the open & I’m not afraid to admit it.
It’s a part of my struggle with anorexia & a huge part of my journey towards accepting losing my mom. It would be unfair for me to hold back about it & would entail me not giving you guys the FULL picture.
So yes, the full picture is I had anorexia & it helped me discover that I also have anxiety & often, reality is, both disorders coexist. But I never took prescribed anxiety medication in my life, despite having been offered it on numerous occasions.
There’s a reason for that. I didn’t just say no for fun. I said no because my eating disorder taught me a lot about the person I am. I’m a person of extremes. No matter what I do & commit to, I do it wholeheartedly, no questions asked. Sometimes, it’s a good thing, but other times, I take it too far.
I also have a very addictive personality & my eating disorder is in part a reflection of that. The control over food became such a huge part of my life that I got addicted to it & guess what? Eating disorders are addictions just like any other, gambling, alcohol, drugs & prescription medication & addictions are dangerous.
As hard as it was to turn down medication that I was told would make my anxiety more bearable & lessen the burden it put on my life, I knew I had to refuse. The second one capsule hit my lips & made me feel better, I’d get hooked on the feeling because let’s be honest, anxiety is NO FUN. So I said no & I found ways to cope with it alternatively.
I can’t say there’s one thing that helped alone. It’s a combination of therapy, grief counselling, exercise, mind work, reading, writing, TALKING about it, facing it instead of repressing it & adaptogenic herbs & supplements. This is what works FOR ME.
(BTW, I just want to put it out there that if you do take anxiety medication, I am not here to condone or put down your decisions. If it works for you, that’s what matters! I’m simply sharing my experience & what has been effective for me).
When it comes to your decision about whether or not to take anxiety medication, you need to ask yourself if it’s conducive to your overall health & well-being SUBJECTIVELY, irrespective of what others tell you & how they say it improved or impacted their life.
You know yourself best & it’s not because they work for someone else that they’ll work for you & vice versa.
GET TO KNOW YOURSELF & make your decision in response to that.
Your anxiety doesn’t have to dominate your life.