Why Ending My Pity Party Was The Stepping Stone To My Personal Growth.

As cliché as it sounds, I really do believe that our battles are handed to us because we were built to handle them & come out victorious.

I spent a huge part of my life feeling sorry for myself for my struggles & because I felt that way, I let myself sink deeper into my misery.

I belittled myself for losing control over my mom’s health & potential to get better, my eating disorder, my anxiety & my divorce to the point where I resented my own self & felt worthless.

I woke up everyday knowing I’d be in pain & settled for that because it’s all I knew.

Trust me, I know; when you’re hurting, the hardest thing in the world is to believe that things get better. But they do. I promise.

I only really realized that when, instead of feeling bad for myself, I began to accept my realities & welcome every challenge & obstacle thrown my way with open arms.

I know, it sounds counterintuitive. But, the shift from making myself feel small, weak & vulnerable to making myself feel big, strong & capable was the stepping stone to my personal growth.

When I finally ended my pity party, I learned to treat everything I’d been through as a gift & I began to actively make decisions to learn from those situations, to take control of my life & to change it.

The power to change your life is in YOUR hands.

You can view any & every situation as an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. YOU CHOOSE. Take it from me, I’ve made both choices & the only one that made me truly happy was the one that screams OPPORTUNITY.

My divorce happened.

My eating disorder almost killed me.

I have anxiety.

I lost my mom & best friend in the entire world.

But all those struggles, the battles I fought with myself & with my mind were necessary steps in my personal growth.

My journey isn’t over. Life will throw hundreds more challenges & rollercoasters my way. But things have a way of working out, even if not instantaneously & I know that every obstacle I’m faced with has its reason. I just might not know it yet.

Today, I’m hopeful & I have the mental strength to hold onto that reason, even if I have to wait a while for it to materialize.

KNOW YOUR WORTH.

FACE YOUR BATTLES & FIGHT THEM.