“HOW LONG DO YOU THINK IT’LL TAKE BEFORE MY BODY GOES BACK TO NORMAL?”
I probably asked myself this question 100 times in recovery.
I asked just about every resource around me: friends, family, therapist, dietitian & doctor & guess what? Nobody knew the answer BECAUSE IT DOESN’T EXIST.
The timing & feelings are different for everyone because EVERYONE’S ED is DIFFERENT in terms of severity, symptoms, internal damage, the degree at which it affects the mind, the speed at which the body is able to stabilize itself & the organs & digestive system are able to start working optimally & to their full capacity.
While I can’t pinpoint the exact moment in time where you’ll start to feel better, what I can assure you is that no matter how painful, uncomfortable hopeless, annoying, burdening & frustrating it is to wake up everyday not knowing how you’re going to feel or how your body is going to react to certain foods, IT GETS BETTER & YES, IT EVEN GOES AWAY FOR GOOD!
I used to have to LITERALLY sit on my couch after every meal for an hour because I couldn’t move.
I spent nights in the bathroom because I didn’t have the energy to get out of bed every time I felt like I needed to.
I looked in the mirror & saw a skeleton but I felt like a sumo wrestler.
I tried every single natural remedy in the book. Some worked temporarily & soothed some of the pain & discomfort but truth is, MY REAL MEDICINE WAS FOOD & reality is it was going to take time for my body to get used to the foreign particles I was FINALLY FUELLING & FEEDING MY BODY. Yes, my life got to such a low that FOOD was considered a foreign particle.
But eventually, my body got used to it.
My body got re-adapted & learned how to digest the food I was eating, to absorb the nutrients from it & how to use them to give me energy & eventually, I stopped feeling so bloated that all I needed was the couch. I stopped spending nights in the bathroom & feeling like a sumo wrestler & trying every single natural remedy in the book.
I healed my body through FOOD & taught my body that it could trust me again & that I would forever commit to BEING GOOD TO IT & LOVING IT the same way it does for me.