EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY.
Every emotion we experience is temporary.
Every time we feel uncomfortable or afraid eventually ends.
Things that made us afraid or uncomfortable a month, week or day ago eventually become comfortable & possible.
Some feelings & experiences take longer to pass & cause more pain than others. But, truth is, it always passes. It always ends.
If you’re experiencing anything that hurts, if you’re having a hard time, struggling with life in general, going through something that you’re not quite sure how to put into words, I’m here for you.
Just remember, there was a day in your near or far past you thought would never end. A day you thought would suck all the life out of you & you’d never come out on the other side. But here you are, today, standing tall & living proof that you’ll ALWAYS survive & it’ll ALWAYS pass.
Recovery taught me that I’m stronger than my fears. I once thought I COULD NEVER eat a heaping tablespoon of nut butter straight out of the jar, an egg yolk, a bowl of oats, a piece of chicken breast or a handful of walnuts, because I was afraid those foods would make my body grow in ways ED wouldn’t approve of.
It taught me that I’m braver than I think & that those fearful emotions, the ones I got every time I nourished my body, THEY GO AWAY. In the moment, they’re the worst feelings in the world. I struggled so hard to fight them & pretend they weren’t there. I prayed for them to stop plaguing me & to get to a point where I felt NORMAL around food.
But reality is: Getting to that place of normalcy wasn’t going to happen overnight & I had to let myself FEEL all the temporary discomfort, fear & anger to find FOOD FREEDOM.
You can only truly overcome fear once you face it.
That’s what I did.
I committed to recovery & that meant accepting that I’d feel many different temporary emotions & situations that made me question my initial decision altogether.
But the one thing that always saved me, stopped me from caving & let me pull through is reminding myself that every temporary feeling was a necessary step in my journey & in recognizing just how strong & capable I was to fight ED.
There were slip-ups.
There still are.
But now I know the true meaning of “THIS TOO SHALL PASS”.
It always does.