Mindset Is Everything & Nothing Is Worth More Than Living Your Dreams.

Post-workout MOOD: Feeling on top of the WORLD.

I get through workouts almost everyday, right?

But it ALWAYS amazes me when I’m able to get through two in a row.

I think it’s pretty amazing for anyone to be able to do that, but what amazes me so much is the transformation: where I come from & where I am now.

It’s terrifying but it’s also my pride & joy.

Our bodies were put on this earth to be used, move, sustain us & be our haven. When you put things into perspective, they really are our sole means of survival.

Without them, we have soul & spirit. But no where for that soul & spirit to live or grow.

In the depths of my anorexia, this is something I knew but chose to disregard as I knew I was doing my body harm but I also didn’t know how to stop.

I also didn’t know what stopping would entail:

• Would I like my life post-recovery more than I loved it when ED was full-fledged?
• Would I hate the way I look post-weight gain?
• Would I be happier in recovery?
• Would I miss my ED?
• Would I feel alone without her?

The uncertainties made it hard for me to choose recovery because life with ED was COMFORTABLE.

But had I never stepped out of comfort, I wouldn’t be shaking my booty in front of a mirror after two intense workouts because I never would’ve allowed myself to get here. I may not have even been here at all. That’s why I’m so amazed, not only at the physical strength I gained over the course of the past (almost) year, but moreso at the power of the human mind & its ability to change your life.

People say “It’s all in the mind”. Sounds cliché.

But it’s so true: Mindset is everything.

I’m here today because I taught my mind that the uncertainties of what recovery would entail were a reasonable price to pay & a worthwhile risk if those same uncertainties meant I’d be able to envision an eventual life without my illness.

Life in & of itself is UNCERTAIN.

You can’t possibly know, have, understand or control everything.

Come to terms with that.

The only thing standing in the way of your dreams & fuelling your fears is YOU

I realized nothing in the world was worth more than me living my dreams.

So here I am, LIVING THEM.