YES, you. <3
Having a bad day? I feel you.
I have them too.
I’m the happiest & healthiest I’ve ever been in my entire life but I STILL have bad days.
A few months ago, on those days, I resorted to anorexia. I sought comfort in her & I did exactly what she asked of me: starved, hibernated, moved & used my body more than it could take & weighed myself before every meal.
I found happiness in the “accomplishment” of those behaviours because I knew she approved of them; it made her happy & that made me feel worthy.
On the bad days, anorexia was my happiness. Anorexia fixed my bad days. Or so I thought.
Little did I know what she had in store for me: 2 years of bad days & a year of constant BATTLE, some good days, some bad days. But a year where I’d have to fight to repair all the damage I did to my body by enslaving myself to my illness.
That’s why, 10 MONTHS INTO RECOVERY, when the bad days haunt me, when I wake up feeling sad, lonely & questioning why I had to go through these struggles so young, I no longer seek comfort in anorexia. She no longer has that hold over me.
I seek comfort FROM MYSELF. I remind myself of my strength, my suffering, my barely beating heart & my complete & utter sadness. I pick myself up from my bed, the couch or the floor & I find the will to transform the bad day into a better one.
No, I will not lie; your bad days probably won’t become your best. They probably won’t even be good at all.
But what matters is that YOU MAKE THEM BETTER.
Only you have the power & control to do that because it’s all about YOUR MINDSET. Shift it & your day will change.
Please, my babes, always remember that:
YOU ARE AMAZING.
YOU ARE ENOUGH.
Whatever is hurting you today, whatever you’re beating yourself up over today, LET GO. Remind yourself of something AMAZING you did today instead & find comfort in knowing that you must ALWAYS love yourself first.
Bad body image? I promise you, your worth isn’t measured in numbers, inches, calories or pounds, but rather in heartbeats, breaths, the goodness of your heart & soul/your positive outlook & the strength of your mind.
TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY (& most certainly a better one).