At a certain point in my life, I was “thunder thighs”.
I was body shamed. I was torn apart by others & what they thought of me.
Body shaming is the simple act of criticizing yourself or others due to some aspect of physical appearance. No matter how it manifests itself, it often leads to comparison, shame & perpetuates the idea that people should be judged mainly for physical features.
I have to admit that the “thunder thighs” nickname stuck with me ever since the day I found out about it.
And yes, there is no hiding it:
- I’m curvy.
- My weight tends to distribute to my lower body.
- Now that I’m weight-restored & working out, I no longer have a thigh gap & my legs are stronger than they’ve ever been.
Throughout recovery, every time I looked at myself in the mirror & noticed that my thighs grew, I wondered if I’d reclaim that title. It scarred me, to say the least.
& No, I’m not here to tell you that this is what led to the development of my eating disorder or pushed me to pursue unrealistic standards.
What I’m telling you is that YOU & I are worth more than the way our weight is distributed, more than comparisons, more than the empty space between our limbs & more than the proportions of our bodies & the size of our jeans.
Someone is always going to think you’re too big, too tall, too skinny or too short. People have a natural tendency to judge.
What they think shouldn’t bother you if you don’t feel that way about yourself.
We often ask ourselves & wonder why it’s so hard for women to be self-confident, self-content, to know their worth & to love themselves for who they are. Body shaming is just one of many problems.
There is no wrong or right way to have a body.
There is no reference point.
If you focus too much on what others think of you, you lose sight of what YOU think of YOURSELF.
Perhaps to some, I’ve reclaimed the title.
Perhaps to others, I never had it in the first place.
But none of that matters.
What matters is that today, I think for myself.
I’m not a title.
I’m not “thunder thighs”.
But I do have thunder thighs.
My thighs are strong & powerful. They can squat, lunge, jump, pulse, lift & hold me up more than ever before.
And there’s no shame in that.