Admit you had to do a double take. Same same.
The photo on the left was taken on December 6, 2016, my birthday & also the day I decided to take medical leave from work to finally work on recovery & getting my life back. I was very close to my rock bottom.
Don’t be fooled. I’m smiling but inside, I’m dying.
It’s my birthday & all I can think about is whether it’ll be my last. Whether I’ll make it to next year alive.
Behind that smile is also fear, the fear of leaving my job & not knowing when or if I’ll ever be able to practice again. The fear of feeling a lack of sense of purpose, accomplishment, challenge & motivation.
I’m scared for my life & for my future. It’s my birthday but I have nothing to celebrate.
The photo on the right was taken today. It’s not my birthday, but it’s my second day back at work… in the LEGAL profession!
I’m recovered & I have my life back. Rock bottom is no longer part of my vocabulary. The best is yet to come.
There’s nothing & nobody to fool. I’m smiling & inside, I’m ALIVE. It’s not my birthday but I know last year’s wasn’t my last. I know I made it to this year.
Behind this smile is courage, confidence & sense of purpose.
I don’t question whether I’ll be able to practice again because I AM LIVING IT. I’ve found passion in the law but also in health & nutrition. I now have more than ONE purpose.
I’m thankful to be alive & I’m excited for my future. It’s not my birthday but I have TONS to celebrate.
This is the beauty that recovery can bring to YOUR LIFE.
How bad do you want it?
I know you have it in you.
Each & every single one of you. Whatever you’re going through, you have the power to make it through, to come out stronger, to find your purpose, your “why”, your mission.
You have the power to find life & to LIVE & BREATHE IT. But only you can bring that power to the surface. Only you can let it shine.
Do it. It’s so freaking worth it.