On Thanksgiving, This Is What I’m Thankful For!

Happy Thanksgiving!

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Although I don’t celebrate Thanksgiving, this year, there are a million things I’m thankful for.

• I’m thankful for family & friends who stood by me, kept hope & didn’t give up on me, no matter what. No matter how much ED destroyed me & turned me into someone I wasn’t cause they showed me what it means to love unconditionally.

• I’m thankful for therapy & for even accepting I needed it in the first place because without it, I don’t know if I would’ve had the courage to face my fears on my own.

• I’m thankful for FOOD because as cliché as it sounds, it really is fuel & medicine.

• I’m thankful for courage & strength because without it, I would’ve given up a long time ago.

• I’m thankful that I chose recovery at a point where I was still able to reverse all the medical complications I developed as a result of ED because I can’t imagine what life would be like if I had to live with them permanently. 

• I’m thankful for having shared my story & journey cause of how therapeutic it is, because it helped me find my passion & raise awareness about EDs & healthy living but most importantly because I met so many beautiful, kind & inspirational people along the way.

• I’m thankful for all of YOU. For your loyalty, honesty, trust, support & love because it gives me fuel to keep pushing through the struggles of recovery & sharing & doing what I’m doing.

• I’m thankful that I regained the ability to control my mind & thoughts because without it, I would’ve succumbed to my demons & the negativity & anxiety they fed me.

But most of all, I’m thankful for LIFE & more so, FOR BEING ALIVE.

Why the distinction?

Because even when I reached rock bottom, I had LIFE. I was living, being & breathing.

But, I was doing those things mindlessly & going through the motions, without feeling & really being ALIVE.

• Today, I have family, friends, food, strength, courage, health, passion, love, support, mental stability & LIFE, only this time, I have those things & get to experience them while not only living, BUT BEING ALIVE.