Fear Of The Unknown VS. Curiosity: Let Curiosity Win.
What if I told you you could get rid of your fear of the unknown if you replace it with curiosity?
Would you face it?
As hard as it is to let go & as natural as your human instinct to do the complete opposite may be, don’t let your fear stop you, decide your fate or your future.
They say people have a hard time letting go of suffering out of a fear of the unknown.
But what’s the alternative?
Had I let my fear of what life would be like without anorexia decide my future, as harsh as it is, truth be told, I probably wouldn’t be here today.
I wouldn’t be here today:
Because my heart would’ve stopped beating.
Because my organs would’ve failed on me.
Because I would’ve lost my mind because my demons would’ve succeeded in their mission to take control of everything that allowed me to live & breathe.
Because my body would’ve given up on me not because it didn’t want to sustain me & love me but because it wouldn’t have had the energy to keep me alive.
Had I let my fears of weight gain, eating & being part of social situations keep me from recovery, I would’ve remained in my suffering until even that familiarity & comfort lost its ability to keep me going & sustain me.
But I didn’t let that happen.
I didn’t let my fear stop me from playing the game.
I didn’t let it because I OPENED MY MIND & MY HEART TO THE UNCERTAINTY OF WHAT LIFE AFTER RECOVERY WAS LIKE.
I let that curiosity drive me until I realized I was no longer afraid.
Curiosity is what helped me to push through the spurts of weight gain, question & wonder what I’d look like & how I’d feel with another 3 or 5 pounds under my belt.
Curiosity is what motivated me to try new foods & to rip up my “safe foods” lists.
Curiosity is what drove me to start seeing family, friends & be a part of social events, parties, holiday dinners because I wanted to experience what I’d been missing out on for so long.
Curiosity is what allowed me to persevere through recovery, even on days where getting out of bed seemed impossible & where I felt heavier, more bloated & emotionally & mentally drained than ever.
Curiosity is what sparked all this fire in my soul because I let it & I actively decided to be STRONGER than what was holding me back.
LET GO OF FEAR.
OPEN YOUR MIND.
Your fear will thank you once it’s gone.