Transformation Tuesdays: When You’re One Decision Away From Changing Your Life, You Make That Decision.
December 2016 ➡️ August 2017.
So much can change in eight months.
Yes, my transformation was hard.
Yes, it frightened me, destroyed me at times & even knocked me down.
Yes, there were times I wanted to stop & give up.
My transformation was hard, but it was worth it.
It frightened, destroyed me & knocked me down.
But, it also allowed me to face & overcome my greatest fears.
It let me pick up all the broken & destroyed pieces of my heart & put them back together.
It made me whole.
It knocked me down but gave me the strength & the ability to see the value in picking myself right back up.
It made me want to stop & give up.
But, it also made me persevere, push myself & fight.
It made me persevere, push myself & fight because with every accomplishment, every meal, every bite, every pound gained, every smile & every laugh, my transformation gave me hope & it reminded me that the little improvements I saw & felt everyday were signs that I was walking further away from my despair, my enemy, my demons & my destruction.
With each passing day, I felt more alive.
Sparks fired in my soul & I began to feel human again.
I began to feel like I deserved more than my illness.
In the picture on the left, I didn’t see my worth.
My transformation had not yet begun.
I had not yet learned the value in EFFORT.
I was too focused on PERFECTION (or on what I thought was perfection).
I did not realize that I was ONE DECISION away from getting my life back.
But that’s because I was not ready.
I did not want it back yet.
I found comfort in one thing only & that thing stood in the way of my transformation.
In the picture on the right, I’m healthy, whole & alive.
I see my worth.
My transformation hasn’t only begun but has skyrocketed.
I see the value in effort & in self-improvement.
I brought that effort every single second of every single day & that’s how my transformation occurred.
I let go of my perfectionism.
I made that ONE DECISION & I have my life back.
I have it back because I was FINALLY READY.
Today, I find comfort in MYSELF, IN MY BODY & IN MY MIND.
I find comfort in WHO I AM & this is what keeps fuelling my transformation.
Eight months ago, people told me I would thank myself in a few months.
I didn’t believe them.
Today, I say, wholeheartedly, that they couldn’t have been more right.