“If It Never Rains, Then We’ll Never Grow”.
“If it never rains, then we’ll never grow“.
I understood myself only after I destroyed myself.
Only in the process of FIXING myself, did I come to know who I was always meant to be.
In the midst of recovering from my anorexia, embarking on a journey towards a healthy lifestyle & rediscovering my happiness, I learned more about myself than I ever knew possible.
As crazy as it sounds, sometimes I feel like this eating disorder HAD TO PLAGUE ME in order to truly let me GROW into the woman I am today.
It had to rain.
No, it had to POUR all kinds of crazy storms, in order for me to see the beauty in:
& BEING MYSELF.
Without my struggle, I wouldn’t be who I am today.
So, as ridiculous as this may sound, I’m thankful for my battle.
For all the thoughts & voices I’ve had to fight.
All the anxieties I’ve had to cope with.
All the emotional breakdowns I went through.
All those times where I felt weak & hopeless & had to force myself to fight the urges to let anorexia back into my mind & heart.
Because without all of these obstacles, I never would’ve stumbled upon my STRENGTH.
As cliché as it sounds, everything truly does happen for a reason.
Trust that there is a plan out there for you.
Sometimes, you just have to take a few twists & turns (sometimes, even wrong turns) to get there.
Sometimes, those twists & turns will scare & freak the heck out of you.
Other times, they may even threaten to take your life away.
But in the midst of all that fear & threat, those twists & turns are part of a powerful process by which you learn JUST HOW STRONG YOU ARE.
In retrospect, when those twists & turns are no longer part of your life.
When you see the light.
When you FIND YOURSELF.
You will come to appreciate them & realize JUST how NECESSARY they were.
You will see the meaning in stepping FORWARD into growth as opposed to stepping BACKWARD into safety.
You will learn the true value in SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN.