Let It Hurt. Let it Bleed. Let It Heal. You Are Stronger Than You Think.
Tonight, I look in the mirror & I’m mind blown by the changes I see.
Mind blown by how STRONG I look.
As I look at myself, I realize that the reflection of PHYSICAL STRENGTH staring back at me is a representation of so much more than what’s on the surface.
It’s a representation of a woman who used tragedy as a source for her strength & of her growth into a more emotionally & mentally aware woman.
So, while I do look stronger than I have in a very long time, what’s more is that I FEEL STRONGER than I ever have in my entire life.
Through the hardships & struggles I’ve faced in the past few years, I’ve come to learn that strength really does grow in the moments when you think you will never be able to go on, BUT YOU KEEP GOING ANYWAY.
It comes not from what you can do BUT FROM OVERCOMING THE THINGS YOU THOUGHT YOU COULDN’T.
It comes from believing in yourself, with all your might.
The littlest glimmer of hope.
The almost-burning spark.
& FINDING THE STRENGTH TO PUSH THROUGH ANOTHER DAY, ANOTHER HOUR, ANOTHER MINUTE & yes, sometimes, EVEN ANOTHER SECOND.
It’s only in rising when you’re about to fall.
Picking yourself up when you’ve fallen.
Fighting when you feel like you’ve got no more fire or fight in you.
That you’re truly able to recognize JUST HOW STRONG YOU ARE.
Strength is found when you go through hardship & you decide not to surrender, not to internalize your pain & suffering & TO FACE IT.
It’s about LETTING IT HURT.
LETTING IT BLEED.
LETTING IT HEAL.
HAVE FAITH & HOPE.
For me, recovery seemed impossible.
But, in my weakest, most hopeless moments, I did what I was told to:
I trusted the process.
I trusted that there was a light at the end of the tunnel.
I deserved to live a normal life, free of ED/my demons & free of worship.
I trusted & believed in myself & today I look in the mirror & I see a stronger woman, not only physically, but more so, mentally & emotionally.
I see a woman who represents THE BATTLES SHE HAS WON.
Who wants nothing more but to send you ONE MESSAGE:
You, my loves, are stronger than you think.