NEWFOUND CURVES. FEMININITY. & YOUTH.

PRE-WORKOUT BOOTY SHAKE TO CELEBRATE MY NEWFOUND CURVY FEMININE BOD: CHECK!

One thing that a lot of you have told me is that I look much younger & glowing now that I’m healthy.

At first, I didn’t see it & I wasn’t sure why.

But of course, I thought about it & I realized that recovery has not only restored the youth in me physically, but also mentally.

Physically, when I was sick, I was skin & bones.

My face was scrawny & bony.

My back was hunched because I didn’t have the strength to hold myself up.

My arms were frail & my legs were skeletal.

Every movement & step was an effort.

I was flat as a board.

No sign of femininity, WHATSOEVER. I looked like a young girl who hadn’t yet hit puberty.

Let me tell you: All of that will do a hell of a good job at aging you.

Mentally, anorexia forced me into an unhealthy, controlled, miserable state of mind.

I simply was NOT THERE.

I was lost, in my own world & found comfort in one thing & one thing ONLY: MY DEMONS.

I worshipped them.

I cried my eyes out when I let them down.

I committed to them so much that I gave them all my love.

Fast forward 7 months…

Today, my face is full & my cheeks have regained their chubbiness & rosiness.

My posture is better than ever, my back is getting stronger & I can do a lot more than just hold myself up.

My arms are getting more toned & my legs now have shape, form & can move mountains, LITERALLY.

Movements & steps are no longer an effort. They’re commonplace. I just move.

I’m curvy, I have a booty to shake & lady parts to speak for. I’m feminine. I’m a woman.

Mentally, recovery has allowed me to regain a young, healthy & happy state of mind.

I’m ALL THERE. I’m found.

I’m part of THE world & of society.

I find comfort in MANY things:

Life, laughter, love.

Exercise, food, health.

Friends, family, going out, enjoyment, staying up late.

Writing, reading, learning.

& BEING A NORMAL 26-YEAR OLD WOMAN.

I no longer worship anything or anyone.

I worship myself.

My body is my haven, but I don’t cry my eyes out if I let it or myself down, if I have a bad day, or if I don’t feel my best.

I use every setback as an opportunity for growth.

&

I GIVE ME ALL MY LOVE.

So thank you munchkins for opening my eyes to all of THIS.

For making me realize the importance of staying YOUNG & YOUTHFUL & HEALTHY!

For allowing me to truly see all the things anorexia took away from me, BUT ALSO ALL THE THINGS THAT RECOVERY HAS ALLOWED ME TO TAKE BACK & GAIN.

I love you all with my full, happy, beating heart & I am so thankful to be here today, hoping to continue to inspire & help you all, WHATEVER JOURNEY YOU ARE ON!