Seven Months Later & Transformed. Believe. Trust. Feel. Fight.

Seven Months Later & Transformed. Believe. Trust. Feel. Fight.

January 2017 to August 2017.

7 months.

Same city. Different setting.

Same girl. Different mindset.

Starving. Devouring.

Dominated by anorexia & slowly dying.

In control of my body & mind & ALIVE.

What a difference 7 months can make, right?

Next time you think whatever you’re struggling with is impossible to overcome, think again.

Think again because THIS TRANSFORMATION is proof that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE, so long as you believe in yourself.

In the picture on the left, I’m at rock bottom, physically & mentally.

I’m really stuck in the deep, dark cave that is anorexia & there seems to be no way out.

I’m at my lowest weight, skeletal & scared for my life.

I’m sitting at EATALY, one of my FAVE places in NYC during the most magical time of the year, Christmas & NYE in NYC.

All I’m drinking is a black coffee.

I’m starving but I CAN’T EAT.

Surrounded by delicious pizza, focaccia, bread, pasta, pastries & gelato.

BUT, all I can think about is:

All the horrible things I’ll feel if I let myself indulge.

How much I’ll hate myself

&

The way I’ll feel when I step on the scale the next day only to see the numbers increase. 

In the picture on the right, I’m healthier than ever, physically & mentally.

I’m no longer in the cave & I’m proud to say I’ve found my way out.

I don’t know my exact weight & that’s PERFECTLY FINE.

My face is fuller. My body is no longer skin & bones. I have SQUISH.

I’m no longer scared for my life – I’m living & loving it.

I’m sitting at Bryant Park.

Devouring a delicious salad packed with protein, healthy fats & drenched in dressing.

I’m hungry & I CAN EAT.

Surrounded by nature & millions of people doing exactly what I am: enjoying life.

All I can think about is:

How far I’ve come.

How amazing I’ll feel after I indulge.

How much I love myself.

&

How much the numbers on the scale no longer matter & no longer define me or my worth.

How to accomplish all of this in just 7 months?

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.

Your abilities.

Your strength.

Your worth.

Your power.

Your drive.

Your determination.

TRUST YOUR BODY.

Listen to it.

Nourish it.

Love it.

Feed it.

TRUST THE PROCESS.

No matter how hard it is.

How long it takes.

How many times anorexia’s voice kicks in & makes you want to cave.

LET YOURSELF FEEL.

Bawl your eyes out when you have to.

Laugh until it hurts at least once everyday.

FIGHT.

Hard.

Like a warrior.

Until you have such a tight grip over your body, mind & your life that YOU CAN SAY YOU’VE WON THE BATTLE.

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