“Listen To Your Eating Disorder & Then, Do The Exact Opposite” a.k.a. The-Road-To-Choosing-YOUR-Life-&-YOUR-Happiness-Over-Anorexia’s.
“Listen to your eating disorder & then, do the exact opposite”.
For too long, I didn’t know that I had the power within me to do that.
I destroyed my body for a peace of mind I never got.
A peace of mind that doesn’t truly exist.
The only way to attain that state of mind is to know & acknowledge that there is no magic cure.
No quick fix.
Only small steps upwards.
An easier day. An unexpected laugh.
A mirror that no longer matters.
A scale that no longer decides your worth.
An outing. A happy conversation. A new food you let yourself indulge in.
Slowly but surely, these things are no longer small or big steps.
They become commonplace.
They become a part of you. They become your life.
But truth be told: Getting there isn’t easy.
The most ironic thing about recovery is that the moments where it feels the MOST PAINFUL are often those when you are making the most progress.
Because progress means you are actively fighting with & challenging your demons, the evil creatures that have been controlling your every move.
That’s when you need to muster up all the strength within you to keep fighting & keep moving forward no matter how loud the ED voice is screaming at you.
Things tend to scream when dying.
When faced with the choice:
You or the ED?
Choose your heartbeat over her ability to break your heart.
Chose your energy over the weariness & fatigue she instills in you.
Choose strength over weakness.
Choose skin over bones.
Choose enjoyment, indulgence & health over sadness, starvation & death.
Choose self-love & confidence over self-hate & insecurity.
CHOOSE YOUR LIFE OVER HERS.
I know, sometimes, these choices will seem like the HARDEST thing in the world.
But, only you have the ability to make them & to TURN YOUR LIFE AROUND.
It’s easy to hide behind our ability to make choices for ourselves because they SCARE US.
But if you push through & let yourself CHOOSE, you’ll see that the only thing that was really standing in your way all along was FEAR.
Don’t let fear win.
LET YOU WIN!