Facing Fears.

Facing Fears.

Happy FriYAY, my loves! <3

I came across this quote the other day & it spoke wonders to me.

Your largest fear carries your greatest growth“.

Coming from a place where I was afraid to let myself EAT, LIVE & ultimately RECOVER from this TERRIBLE illness that consumed my body, mind & soul, I speak from experience when I tell you that this quote speaks nothing but the truth. 

For FAR TOO LONG, I knew I was afraid.

I knew I had to face fear.

But I couldn’t.

I didn’t let myself because I was so engulfed in all the melancholy, darkness & sadness that ED had convinced me was my destiny.

I didn’t know that facing everything ED seduced me to think was beautiful & perfect was what I needed to do in order to overcome all those fears & GROW FROM THEM. 

 BUT THEN, one day, I faced THEM.

ALL OF THEM.

ONE BY ONE.

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I came to learn that the beautiful thing about fear (That I wish I had known all along) is that when you run to it, IT RUNS AWAY. Let me tell you, it runs for its life. 

Fear is your brain’s way of telling you that there is something you must FIGHT to overcome.

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The only thing standing in your way to BEGIN THAT FIGHT IS YOU.

YOUR REFLECTION.

Only you have the power to take a good look at yourself & muster up whatever strength & courage you have within your soul & DECIDE to face EVERYTHING that has been holding you back & stopping your growth.

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In those moments, those very scary moments where I looked at my reflection & at ED RIGHT IN HER DARK EYES & told her I was giving up on her.

That I was going to face everything she told me to internalize & bottle up.

I discovered I was Fierce.

Strong.

&

Full of fire.

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That I could not even hold myself back because my PASSION burned brighter than my FEARS.

From that day forward, I’ve grown so much.

I’ve grown:

Spiritually.

Emotionally.

Physically.

Mentally.

Socially.

I’ve grown in ways I never thought possible.

I’ve grown into the woman that I know with utmost certainty my mom ALWAYS wanted me to become.

Into somebody who is NO LONGER AFRAID to be vulnerable, to be real, to be raw, to be imperfect & ULTIMATELY, TO BE HUMAN.

My loves, I leave you with one thing this morning:

ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU’RE AFRAID TO DO.

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