Happy Birthday Mommy <3
Happy birthday to the most beautiful woman & most beautiful soul.
There’s a reason you left such a mark on every single person you encountered.
Happy birthday, mommy.
I miss you like hell.
Today, you would’ve been 54.
Actually, today you are 54.
I always hated (& still hate) talking about you in the past tense. That’s because even though you aren’t physically here with me, I still feel your presence no matter where I am.
I’ve been wearing you on my finger, carrying you with me everywhere I go & I know you are with me.
I know you are with me because I would not have been able to find the strength to overcome my illness if it weren’t for you.
I know, with utmost certainty, that it is YOU that sends me the WILLPOWER to pick myself up on my bad days & to continue fighting.
I know that it is YOU smiling from ear to ear on my good days, on my best days & on my accomplishment days.
I know that it is YOU that inspires me to be a better me each & every single day.
BUT MOST OF ALL, I know that it is YOU (& daddy) that raised me to be the strong & independent woman that I am & that has found it within herself to not only recover from this eating disorder, but to grieve your loss, the WORST loss that I have ever suffered in my entire life.
And today, on your birthday, I thank you:
For your love.
For your support.
For your motivation.
For your heart of gold.
For your determination.
For your care.
For your generosity.
For your unselfishness.
For your complete & utter dedication.
Not only do I thank you for all of that while you were still here with me physically…
BUT MOST OF ALL, I thank you for continuing to provide me with all of that (& more) from above, for watching over me & for helping me grow as a person with you as a role model.
I’m growing up without you but because you are so present all around me, it almost feels like you are an angel following me through life, guiding me & helping me make the right choices.
So thank you my love.
Thank you for ALWAYS fulfilling your duties as a mom WITH UTMOST PERFECTION & thank you for continuing to fulfill them. I never had a doubt that that’s exactly what you would do.
I love you mommy.
Yesterday. Today. Always. Forever.