Get This Anorexia: I Am Officially a Lady Who Lunches! Oh & Special Shoutout To Copper Branch For Bursting my Anorexia-Recovery-Restaurant Cherry!
TODAY, A FREAKING MIRACLE HAPPENED.
I, Kelly Ohana, yes, the girl recovering from anorexia;
the one who hasn’t eaten in a restaurant in over TWO & A HALF YEARS (WOW… that sounds like FOREVER!);
the one who was LEGIT PETRIFIED OF RESTAURANTS;
went out for lunch.
GET THIS ANOREXIA – Today, I BECAME A LADY WHO LUNCHES!
And so, when things like this happen, what do we say?
ANOTHER DAY, MORE PROGRESS!
I seriously never ever in my right (or left, for that matter) mind thought that this day would come. LEGIT, something came over me. I randomly got this urge & desire, this crazy feeling of “OKAY, Kelly, you’re ready to eat in a restaurant today”.
And so, that’s exactly what I did.
Guys… I know, it sounds trivial. It sounds dumb. It sounds crazy to glamorize & rant & rave about this. But you have no idea what this means to me, my loves.
This means so many things.
It means I am no longer afraid to go to a restaurant & to order something (still healthy-ISH, of course!) off the menu that I don’t necessarily know every single ingredient that went into preparing it.
It means I can participate in friend & family events that involve restaurants without being that girl who sits in the corner, isolated & says she already ate dinner OR without being that crazy customer who drives the waiter INSANE (P.S. Said waiter would totally spit in my food – YEP, THAT’S JUST HOW ANNOYING I USED TO BE! Dressing on the side. No oil. No sauce. No this. No that. BASICALLY, NO FOOD. THANKS!).
It means I can go out during the day & eat on the go, without worrying that I am diverting from my meal plan too much or that I’m not eating at the EXACT right time.
It means that I am free.
IT MEANS THAT ANOREXIA NO LONGER CONTROLS ME.
It means EVERYTHING.
My loves, I am so
f*cking proud of myself. I DON’T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY, besides that I am accepting INVITATIONS for lunch dates starting tomorrow. SO PLEASE, FEEL FREE TO REACH OUT.
No, but in all seriousness, yes, this is a baby step…
BUT FOR ME, THIS IS A BABY STEP IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.
It means I took another step forward.
It means I will never let myself take a step back.
It means that I am one step closer to ridding myself of the illness that TRIED (keyword: TRIED) to ruin my life.
It means that I DEVOURED A FREAKING POWER BOWL & A HALF & ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE LAST BITE… until I saw the freaking bottom of the bowl.
AND NOW, I’m already thinking about going back there for lunch tomorrow… WHO AM I KIDDING? FOR DINS TONIGHT. Seriously.
P.S. Special shoutout to @copperbranch for bursting my ANOREXIA-RECOVERY-RESTAURANT CHERRY! Your food is EVERYTHING from delicious to raw to real to clean & healthy! I AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE DISCOVERED YOU! You just gained yourselves a loyal AF customer. GET READY TO SEE ME MORE OFTEN! SORRY NOT SORRY!
OH & BTW, if you munchkins wanna see this experience IN FULL FREAKING EFFECT, like LIVE, go watch my INSTA STORY STAT!!! You only have 24 hours… well, LESS NOW! So, go, go, go!!!!!