All dressed up & SOMEWHERE TO GO!
All dressed up & (
NOWHERE) SOMEWHERE TO GO!
Oh, how freaking awesome it feels to say that!!!!
My loves, I look back on my life almost five, YEP FIVE, months ago & picture myself…
All cooped up in a ball under the covers.
Shivering to death.
Depressed (maybe even bawling my eyes out).
No desire or energy (I MEAN ZERO) to leave my bed, let alone LEAVE MY HOUSE.
And it scares the eff out of me to know I reached that point. Like PETRIFIES ME.
BUT, as you babies know, I’m ALL ABOUT SEARCHING FOR THAT
LITTLE BIT (HUGE AMOUNT) OF POSITIVITY IN ALL THAT NEGATIVITY
& so, here I am, tonight, recovery in full freaking fledge (& need I say, on freaking fleek!)…
All made up!
Dressed up & ready to go!
NOT IN BED!
Not cooped up!
Laughing (dancing & singing as I ride with my sissy)!
CERTAINLY NOT STARVING!
WITH ALL THE DESIRE (& ENERGY) IN THE WORLD TO LEAVE MY BED & EVEN BETTER, MY HOUSE!!!
MY LOVES, this is PROGRESS AF!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tell me otherwise & BYE!
And so, on this beautiful summer night, where my cousin graduates (& is freaking valedictorian) & I acknowledge my INSANE AMOUNT OF PROGRESS…
I say thank you to you all.
Thank you for your love.
Thank you for your messages.
Thank you for your support.
Thank you for your never ending & relentless motivation for me to get back up on my worst & hardest days.
BUT MOST OF ALL, THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU & MAKING EVERY DAY OF THIS BATTLE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL REWARDING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE! (Yep, just called anorexia recovery beautiful!!!!!!!).
Simply put, I adore you all.