My Journey Towards Living My Healthiest & Happiest Life Through Nutrition, Fitness & Mindwork
June 21, 2017
All dressed up & SOMEWHERE TO GO!
All dressed up & (NOWHERE) SOMEWHERE TO GO!
Oh, how freaking awesome it feels to say that!!!!
My loves, I look back on my life almost five, YEP FIVE, months ago & picture myself…
All cooped up in a ball under the covers.
Shivering to death.
In PJs.
Depressed (maybe even bawling my eyes out).
Starving.
Hibernating.
&
No desire or energy (I MEAN ZERO) to leave my bed, let alone LEAVE MY HOUSE.
And it scares the eff out of me to know I reached that point. Like PETRIFIES ME.
BUT, as you babies know, I’m ALL ABOUT SEARCHING FOR THAT LITTLE BIT (HUGE AMOUNT) OF POSITIVITY IN ALL THAT NEGATIVITY
& so, here I am, tonight, recovery in full freaking fledge (& need I say, on freaking fleek!)…
All made up!
Dressed up & ready to go!
NOT IN BED!
Not cooped up!
Not hibernating!
Laughing (dancing & singing as I ride with my sissy)!
CERTAINLY NOT STARVING!
&
WITH ALL THE DESIRE (& ENERGY) IN THE WORLD TO LEAVE MY BED & EVEN BETTER, MY HOUSE!!!
MY LOVES, this is PROGRESS AF!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tell me otherwise & BYE!
And so, on this beautiful summer night, where my cousin graduates (& is freaking valedictorian) & I acknowledge my INSANE AMOUNT OF PROGRESS…
I say thank you to you all.
Thank you for your love.
Thank you for your messages.
Thank you for your support.
Thank you for your never ending & relentless motivation for me to get back up on my worst & hardest days.
BUT MOST OF ALL, THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU & MAKING EVERY DAY OF THIS BATTLE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL REWARDING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE! (Yep, just called anorexia recovery beautiful!!!!!!!).