All dressed up & SOMEWHERE TO GO!

All dressed up & (NOWHERE) SOMEWHERE TO GO!

Oh, how freaking awesome it feels to say that!!!!

My loves, I look back on my life almost five, YEP FIVE, months ago & picture myself…

All cooped up in a ball under the covers.

Shivering to death.

In PJs.

Depressed (maybe even bawling my eyes out).

Starving.

Hibernating.

&

No desire or energy (I MEAN ZERO) to leave my bed, let alone LEAVE MY HOUSE.

And it scares the eff out of me to know I reached that point. Like PETRIFIES ME.

BUT, as you babies know, I’m ALL ABOUT SEARCHING FOR THAT LITTLE BIT (HUGE AMOUNT) OF POSITIVITY IN ALL THAT NEGATIVITY

& so, here I am, tonight, recovery in full freaking fledge (& need I say, on freaking fleek!)…

All made up!

Dressed up & ready to go!

NOT IN BED!

Not cooped up!

Not hibernating!

Laughing (dancing & singing as I ride with my sissy)!

CERTAINLY NOT STARVING!

&

WITH ALL THE DESIRE (& ENERGY) IN THE WORLD TO LEAVE MY BED & EVEN BETTER, MY HOUSE!!!

MY LOVES, this is PROGRESS AF!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tell me otherwise & BYE!

And so, on this beautiful summer night, where my cousin graduates (& is freaking valedictorian) & I acknowledge my INSANE AMOUNT OF PROGRESS…

I say thank you to you all.

Thank you for your love.

Thank you for your messages.

Thank you for your support.

Thank you for your never ending & relentless motivation for me to get back up on my worst & hardest days.

BUT MOST OF ALL, THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU & MAKING EVERY DAY OF THIS BATTLE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL REWARDING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE!  (Yep, just called anorexia recovery beautiful!!!!!!!).

Simply put, I adore you all.