Sorry not sorry, but I’m about to go all MOTIVATIONAL TUESDAYS on you RIGHT NOW!
Current mood? OH YOU KNOW, just feeling’ SUPER-DUPER-ÜBER-PEACHY!
My move is ALMOST done.
The gains keep on on comin’ (I mean, I think my pics speak for themselves, no?).
I FEEL FREAKING AMAZING & HAVE MORE ENERGY NOW THAN I’VE HAD IN LIKE TWO YEARS! The fact that I’m MISS PIGGY must be helping… No but seriously, rewind back like four months & I would have NEVER & I mean, NEVER, been able to pack a box without huffing & puffing & almost feeling like I was about to have a heart attack or pass out… LET ALONE LIFT A BOX OR NUMEROUS ONES AT A TIME. You munchkins should’ve seen me the past few days, LIFTING PILES & I MEAN, PILES, of boxes packed with cosmetics, shoes, clothes, dishes, pots, pans & whatever other treasures I’ve accumulated over the years! LEGIT, SUPERWOMAN STATUS!
AND FORGET ABOUT THE BOXES, think chairs, wine racks, shelving units. INSANITY, my loves, insanity. THIS IS PROGRESS. It might sound funny to you, but seriously, I picture myself walking up four freaking stairs just a few months ago & legit needing to stop to catch my breath… AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO BREAK DOWN. But then, I remember that I have like ten more boxes to unpack STAT, SO NO BREAKING DOWN FOR ME RN.
AND, I simply feel the healthiest I HAVE EVER BEEN! It really is crazy (IN THE MOST AMAZING WAY POSSIBLE) how completely changing your eating habits & making it a LIFESTYLE CHANGE can have a POSITIVE effect on everything in your life from your skin, hair, nails, body & YES, EVEN YOUR MOOD & THE WAY YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF & YOUR PERSPECTIVE ON LIFE. Call me crazy, but make the change & you will understand. This is not to say that this is a change that you can make or that will happen overnight. IT TAKES TIME, EFFORT, COMMITMENT, UPS, DOWNS, LOWS, HIGHS but I promise you munchkins that the investment is worth EVERY CENT (Both literally & figuratively!).
My loves, what I’m living right now is the RAW PROOF THAT HARD WORK & DEDICATION PAYS OFF!
Being you, doing you, FOR YOU is EVERYTHING.
And please, don’t let ANYBODY make you think differently.
SO MANY PEOPLE have:
Tried to get in my way.
Criticized & mocked me.
Tried to hinder my progress.
Spoken behind my back (Oh, and even worse & immaturely posted about me all over Facebook!).
Put me down for being too committed, too motivated & too “into my recovery & “meal plan“.
AND WORST OF ALL?
So many people abandoned me when I needed them most. Four months ago, this abandonment ate away at me. Literally. It killed me. It broke me down. It broke my heart into a million little pieces. And yes, today, I am comfortable enough to own up to those feelings & admit them.
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?
FOUR MONTHS LATER:
Recovery has allowed me to develop this immeasurable amount of strength & said strength allowed me to PUSH THE HATE ASIDE purely & simply because I did not NEED OR WANT that negativity in my life.
So no, nobody got in my way.
The criticism & mockery did not break me.
My progress has not been hindered & is only looking UP FROM HERE.
The haters can keep talking ALL THEY WANT. Their words are useless, horrible & worst of all, UNFOUNDED. (Oh, and their Facebook posts really just crack me up!)
I AM STILL COMMITTED. I AM STILL MOTIVATED & I AM STILL SUPER INTO MY RECOVERY & MEAL PLAN. Not happy? TOO BAD!
Oh, & that feeling of abandonment?
THANKS TO ALL YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE LOVING ME, CARING FOR ME & SUPPORTING ME DAY IN & DAY OUT, I no longer feel it!
AND, if I ever do SLIGHTLY feel it, I remind myself that those who abandoned me ARE SIMPLY NOT WORTH MY ENERGY, EMOTION OR TIME. Quite frankly, they are simply not worth it at all.
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So thank you.
TO ALL THOSE WHO LOVE, CARE & SUPPORT ME, NEAR OR FAR, FAMILY, FRIENDS, STRANGERS. From the bottom of my heart (That is THANKFULLY beating perfectly normal again!!!!!).
YOU MAKE THE BATTLE WORTH FIGHTING.
YOU MAKE THE BATTLE EASIER.
YOU MAKE THE BATTLE FUN (Believe it or not!).
AND MOST OF ALL, YOU GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO KEEP BEING A FREAKING SOLDIER & A HALF AS I FIGHT THIS BATTLE (& STAND AT THE FRONT OF THE LINE!).
I love you munchkins.