Okay, so this is me, NOT “AU NATUREL“ (Hey, at least I’m open about it, eh?).
I put on makeup for like the FIRST TIME IN AGES TODAY & it actually feels GREAT!!!!! Not to mention, I had a field day countouring THESE NEWFOUND CHUBBY-AF CHEEKS!!!!! Guys, if you tell me you don’t see them gains in this pic, I MIGHT JUST HAVE TO COME OVER THERE & TACKLE YOU. MAYBE, just maybe, that will suffice for you to realize I’m actually pretty DAMN HEAVY.
Anywho my loves, on this beautiful motivational Wednesday, I share with you munchkins how freaking PROUD I am of my progress & I scream to the world that I AM ECSTATIC ABOUT MY WEIGHT GAIN. I gotta admit, I never thought I’d see the day where I would say that, BUT HEY, THERE IS A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING, RIGHT? The only thing that sucks is that now that my face is chubbier, I’m gonna be running outta my makeup FASTER!!!! There’s more to cover up now! Bahahahaah! Guess I’ll just have to make those Sephora runs more often (Oh well. First world probs, right?).
No, but seriously guys, realizations like this make me so freaking thankful.
THANKFUL THAT I CHOSE RECOVERY.
THANKFUL THAT I AM COMMITTED-AF.
THANKFUL FOR ALL YOUR LOVE.
THANKFUL FOR BEING GIFTED IN THE KITCH THANKS TO MY MAMA.
THANKFUL THAT I NO LONGER FEEL AN OUNCE OF ANXIETY AROUND FOOD.
BUT, most of all, THANKFUL THAT I CHOSE THE GIFT OF LIFE.
Would I be standing outside my doorstep taking 8384838 selfies in hopes of getting the “best shot” had I not made that conscious choice? I don’t know. I can honestly say, with complete and utter certainty, that had I not chosen life that night in my therapist’s office, it’s safe to say that I’m not sure where I would be today.
In fact, I’m not even sure I would even “BE”.
But, all that is irrelevant now because I made the choice &
TODAY, I AM.
And by “I am”, I mean, TODAY I AM ALIVE!!! & taking selfies on my doorstep like a NORMAL 20-SOMETHING YEAR-OLD!!!!! Babies, I don’t care if I’m bragging RN & I don’t care if you’re judging me.
BUT, I AM SUPERWOMAN!!!!!!
KAY & on a way less serious note, can we just discuss how on point Snapchat has been recently with its filters????? I’m LEGIT OBSESSSSSSSSED. Thanks to snap, I’m instantly a FEISTY-AF PUSSYCAT. I AM SO DOWN WITH THAT, you?