The Definition of Progress: When You Get The Green Light From Your Doc to Start Yoga Again a.k.a. Things-Always-Have-a- Way-of-Falling-Into-Place-Exactly-As-They- Should-You-Just-Have-To-Let-Them-Oh-&-NAMASTE!
Another day, ANOTHER ACCOMPLISHMENT.
When you finally get the GREEN LIGHT from your doc to start YOGA, LIFE IS GOOD & BEAUTIFUL!
My loves, THIS IS A HUGE ONE.
I remember, so vividly, sitting in my doc’s office a few months ago, just after my weigh-in (seeing that I lost yet another 0.5 lbs) & hearing her utter the following: “Kelly, YOU NEED TO BE ON BED REST AT THIS POINT. You need to keep in EVERY CALORIE YOU CAN. Don’t even go to Costco”. (It’s funny how nowadays, we associate going to Costco as a “workout”, & it kind of is when you think about it). No, but, she was really FREAKING SERIOUS & I was REALLY FREAKING SCARED.
BUT THEN, fast forward to 2 weeks ago when I went for my follow-up & IT’S AMAZING HOW THINGS HAVE A WAY OF TURNING AROUND & FALLING INTO PLACE EXACTLY AS THEY SHOULD. She looked at me in utter HAPPINESS WITH THE BIGGEST SMILE ON HER FACE & told me that she was going to make my day… I thought, how on earth could my doc make my day? The doc who took YOGA AWAY FROM ME? NAH. Never gonna happen.
And then, she told me she had never IN HER ENTIRE CAREER (BTW, she specializes in eating disorders) seen somebody SO DETERMINED & MOTIVATED who had the ability, ON HER OWN, to take anorexia into the palms of her hands & CRUSH HER SO HARD, as though she had NEVER EXISTED & NEVER TAKEN CONTROL OF HER MIND, BODY & SOUL (Basically, CONTROL OF HER LIFE!).
And then, she broke it to me: “Kelly, GUESS WHAT? You can restart yoga again!!”
And just like that, the doctor who broke my heart into tiny little pieces put it back together again, and MADE NOT ONLY MY DAY, BUT MY WEEK.
Lovies, all this to say that, NO MATTER HOW HARD, BAD, TRAUMATIC & EVEN, IMPOSSIBLE LIFE GETS & NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU FEEL LIKE HIDING FROM THE WORLD, CRUMBLING INTO A LITTLE BALL & NEVER COMING OUT OF THAT DARK, DARK PLACE, please take my experience as a testimony that THINGS DO & WILL ALWAYS TURN AROUND. You just need to find it within yourself to LET THEM & then, in the blink of an eye, a MIRACLE HAPPENS & you are the happiest you’ve ever been.
Suddenly, LIFE IS EASY, GOOD, AND BEAUTIFUL & EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. YOU COME OUT OF HIDING, YOU COME OUT TO THE WORLD, YOU UN-CRUMBLE YOURSELF FROM THAT LITTLE BALL & YOU SEE THE LIGHT.
This, my loves, IS WHERE I AM TODAY & I could not be PROUDER, but most of all, I could not be more THANKFUL for THE CONTINUOUS LOVE & SUPPORT YOU HAVE ALL PROVIDED ME WITH, LEGIT, NON-STOP.
So yes, my doc made my day, my week, whatever, but YOU GUYS MADE IT POSSIBLE FOR HER TO DO THAT.
Your support is my fuel & I love you all from the bottom of my heart.
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